Monthly Archives: May 2014

Battling Insurance

So back in March, at the beginning of our IVF cycle our insurance denied coverage of the medication. I mean, how can it cover the procedure and NOT the medication? Well apparently there are people who do it without meds…but clearly that wasn’t going to work for me.

They denied the coverage saying blanketed that it wasn’t covered “except as outlined in the Outpatient Medical Services provision”. Well that provision stated that it was covered if I had a history of infertility for 2 or more years. Well, HELLO…it’s been just exactly 2 years since we started treatment in France for infertility. Therefore these bastards better cover it.

I mean, honestly I’m just happy they paid for the $15k for the procedure. But the $8500 for the meds was a big, unexpected cost for us. Since we assumed that the meds were covered as well. Praying this works and we can get at least SOME of our money back!

This stuff is expensive, but worth every penny!

This stuff is expensive, but worth every penny!

IVF Guilt

So after taking over 2 years, and having to resort to IVF, in order to get pregnant. I feel like I’m extra cautious, and I have mega guilt if I make a mistake. For example, I want to eat the right things and do everything just perfectly. After all, we went through this huge effort for this baby and if anything were to go wrong I would feel absolutely horrid.

-I’m feeling guilty when I indulge my sweet cravings. I know the baby needs healthy meals, packed full of fruits and veggies with nutrients for him or her to have everything it needs to grow and be strong. But sometimes, I just HAVE to have a sweet here and there. I give in, and when I do I have this immense guilt!

-I’m feeling guilty for having a TEENY TINY glass of wine the other night. Before getting preggo, I was a complete and total wine-o! There was nothing better for me after a long day, than having a delicious glass of wine.  We were at a dinner party, and they had opened a beautiful bottle of ’97 Cakebread. I couldn’t resist having a taste. It was so yummy, and made me miss wine even more. But I stuck to my guns and only had a few sips over a 3 hour dinner. But that night when I went home, I had a mild freak out. What had I done???? We’ve done all this for our miracle baby, and I couldn’t even turn down some wine? It was a horrible feeling!

-I went to the grocery store today, alone for the first time. Normally, the hubs comes along so that I don’t have to lift anything. But I’m so used to doing everything, and handling everything myself. I figured that I could handle the job today. Carrying the groceries into the house, including a case of coke and a big bottle of laundry detergent. I immediate regretted it. I shouldn’t have lifted all this stuff. I should have waited and let hubs help me. I will be so devastated if I’ve hurt the baby in anyway or caused a miscarriage. It’s still only the 8th week, the odds are still high for MC and they tell you specifically not to lift, push or pull anything heavy. What have I done?

This guilt will definitely stay with me throughout my pregnancy. And I waiver between wanting to be independent, and I can handle all of this stuff and just live my life normally…to the extreme opposite. Just wanting to sit on the couch and do nothing for the next 7 months until the baby arrives so that I don’t do anything wrong. Neither is realistic, and I need to get these feelings under control because stress (ie. guilt) isn’t good for the baby.

It’s crazy this little baby is just the size of a berry and it’s already taking over my life, and I already love it so much that I can’t stand the thought of anything bad happening to it. I pray this pregnancy goes well, and that I will get to meet this little human in a few short months!

 

PS. After a bit of research, it turns out that there are plenty of women/parents out there feeling this way. In fact, some have even had it become an issue while raising their children. For example some people are having troubles punishing their children because of the guilt from IVF. O man…I hope I’m able to get this issue under control!!

8th Week

At this point I’m half way through my 8th week of pregnancy. On Monday we had an ultrasound at the specialist. Our little bean is definitely growing. Now the size of a raspberry, (s)he was wiggling around in there. We got to hear the heartbeat again, and it was going strong at 155 beats per min. It’s finally starting to feel real, and I’m getting very excited about this little nugget already.

Baby's growing like a champ. I could actually make out limbs at the US!!

Baby’s growing like a champ. I could actually make out limbs at the US!!

My friends Ali & Eduardo had her baby boy on Monday. He’s so little and just so cute. This was my first friend to have a baby vaginally. She said it was an amazing experience, despite having contractions for over 2 days. He weighed in at 7lbs 8oz and was a whopping 22 inches long. We’ve been watching their first fur baby…Mr. Paco. He’s in for quite the surprise when I bring him home to his new little brother!

Baby Samuel Eduardo Henriques....so so cute!

Baby Samuel Eduardo Henriques….so so cute!

 

How far along?  8 weeks 4 days
Total weight gain/loss: 2 lbs (basically from completely cutting out exercise)
Maternity clothes? Not yet…but I’m using a hair tie to extend my pants and some shorts.
Stretch marks? No
Sleep: Sleeping great
Best moment this week: Seeing the little bean get even bigger since the last ultrasound. (S)He even measured one day ahead!
Have you told family and friends: Yep!
Miss Anything? Wine. I was naughty and had a TINY splash of wine on Monday night at a dinner party. It was a ’97 Cakebread and there was no chance I wasn’t having a taste!
Movement: No
Food cravings: Sweets. It’s a problem! I’ve been eating these protein bars in between meals, and I read the packaging and turns out there’s high fructose corn syrup. So then I started researching, and that sh*ts in like everything. So I made it a point at my last grocery shop to not buy anything with that crap any more. Apparently it’s a contributing factor to gestational diabetes. SCARY!
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing specific, it’s really random when I get my nausea.

Have you started to show yet:  Nah
Gender prediction: Still feeling girl! Dr. Hernandez-Rey predicted girl at our ultrasound this week, based on the heartbeat rate
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody.
Looking forward to: Finding out the gender, I know I’ve got like 10 more weeks…but I’m pretty excited to see what’s growing inside me!

7th Week of Pregnancy

Today is 7weeks + 3 days of being preggo. So far, this has been the most difficult week. My symptoms are kicking my a$$…..I’m exhausted, moody, zitty, nauseous, sore bbs, and have had diarrhea for a few days as well. I just don’t feel like myself. I normally love food, and nothing tastes right. My complex and even my face seems to look different. Just not comfortable in my skin at the moment. Hopefully I get my groove back in a few weeks for the 2nd & 3rd trimester.

Finally made a decision on our OB/GYN. We’re going to use the doctor my friend is using, and she’s about to pop any minute, literally! It’s a practice with two doctors….Dr. Alex Ferro and Dr. Gregory Michaels. Crazy to think one of these blokes will be delivering my precious angel. I pray we’ve made the right decision. We meet with the new doc on the 28th.

We painted the nursery last weekend and picked out an amazing grey color, and plan to have one accent wall with a gorgeous banana leaf wallpaper (a la Beverly Hills Hotel). Here’s a pic of the accent wallpaper we’re going for….

Astek Banana Leaf / Martinique Wallpaper

Astek Banana Leaf / Martinique Wallpaper

Do we like the pattern repeat??

Do we like the pattern repeat??

I can’t believe that our little bean is the size of a blueberry and that (s)he is moving around in there. We get to see her/him (I def think it’s a girl!) again in just 6 days, at our final ultrasound with the RE specialist Dr. Hernandez-Rey. I love the staff there so much, they really feel like family. I hope to keep in touch and have them meet our little bean once (s)he arrives!

 

Birthday

Funny, tomorrow is my birthday and usually it’s a much-to-do event. However, this year I’ve been so focused on this little baby that I haven’t had time to focus on me. I guess that’s what parenthood is all about…no more me, me, me….it’s all baby, baby, baby!

Anywho since I’m preggo, and my 2 best friends aren’t really drinking and since I’m turning 31 it’s going to be a low key birthday (one’s 9.5 months preg, the other is breast feeding). I’m thinking a nice juicy burger at Shake Shack, then the love of my life Cake Batter ice cream at Cold Stone.

PS. The nausea is full force today, I hope it calms down a bit tomorrow!

Happy birthday to me!

Happy birthday to me!

Met Gala 2014 – My Thoughts

The Met Gala always showcases the most amazing fashion. Women (and men for that matter), go all out! However I must say that this year I can’t help but feel completely underwhelmed!

I think it’s a reflection on society as a whole and the fact that we don’t dress up any more. I mean people in their sweats and PJs at the airport is my biggest pet peeve. Like for real, put some clothes on.

This year’s Met Gala was full of women looking beautiful, but not really pulling out all the “fashion” stops IMO. And I know crop tops are the new trend…but is it really necessary for gowns? NOT A FAN. The scary thing is, the only persons dress I liked was Kim Kardashian (Say What??). Oh, and Victoria Beckham looked awesome!

Basically the majority of these women looked like they were walking some random red carpet event….NOT the Met Ball. Agree?

Anne Hathaway in her Calvin Klein dress that blended right into that horrible carpet. Opps.

Anne Hathaway in her Calvin Klein dress that blended right into that horrible carpet. Opps.

Lupita N, in Prada,  looks like she's going to a Native American celebration.

Lupita N, in Prada, looks like she’s going to a Native American celebration.

Emma Stone wore Thakoon and from the waist up looks like she's hitting the gym.

Emma Stone wore Thakoon and from the waist up looks like she’s hitting the gym.

Rhianna wearing Stella McCartney crop top dress.

Rhianna wearing Stella McCartney crop top dress.

Michelle Williams in Louis Vuitton. I mean she looks like she should be going to church!

Michelle Williams in Louis Vuitton. I mean she looks like she should be going to church!

 

6w2days

Today was our very first ultrasound. I went in and was extremely nervous. Last time I had gotten to this point, I was super excited only to find that there was no baby and eventually figured out we had an ectopic pregnancy. BUT NOT THIS TIME!!!

Doc said that things are looking great! Today is 6 weeks, 2 days and baby is measuring 6 weeks, 1 day. Our little bean is just .4 cm! We heard the heartbeat, and it was the most amazing feeling!

THIS IS REALLY HAPPENING! Here are the details….

How far along? 6 weeks 2 days
Total weight gain/loss: 2 lbs (basically from completely cutting out exercise)
Maternity clothes? Nope, but def bought a new bra….that’s right I’m now a B!!!
Stretch marks? No
Sleep: Sleeping great
Best moment this week: Hearing the heartbeat!!
Have you told family and friends: Yep, since everyone knew we were doing IVF, it was cruel to keep the good news to ourselves.
Miss Anything? Wine.
Movement: No
Food cravings: Sweets!
Anything making you queasy or sick: I thought it was citrus….but turns out it’s just EVERYTHING!
Have you started to show yet:  feeling pretty chubby, had to unbutton my pants a few times this week!
Gender prediction: Girl!
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody. I go from happy as a clam, to a crazy B.
Looking forward to: Our next appointment, at 8 weeks.

Newest member of the family!!

Newest member of the family!!

PS. My doc is 5 for 5 this last round of IVF. I would HIGHLY recommend him!!